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rio_luna626I went to bed last night at the very un-Walpurgisnacht-ish 8pm. I stepped out to see if the moon was visible but lumpy cloud cover turned everything blue. The rain was just starting and I could hear dozens of roosting birds and the drizzle sizzling on the lawn. It wasn’t terribly cold, I went to bed with the heat off. Up in the wee hours predawn to rain splashed windows, a definite chill.
New moon on Tuesday night was very complete and lovely.
Monday was not the best day for Kyle and the renovation, but there are still a few things left. I promised him today was the last of it. Emmy came along, they had been fighting, awkward as hell but let’s get it. Kyle did the last couple things. He also forgot a couple things but he started making noise about @ it might be better for you to hire someone down here instead of us driving down.” I could tell by the he by dramatic sighs, complaints about his back etc, Kyle is DONE. So I tagged him out. Today was the last of it.
Realtor K says the last things are not deal breakers, so we are going to g to see if there’s pushback. I still have to schedule the bagster pickup, and go down there tomorrow to mop the porch, and pick up the last of the trash. I was almost done but Kyle was wiped out, Emmy was cranky and it was bus they didn’t want to spend another 30 minutes there so we left. There was suddenly an appointment that Emmy had to be at, at 1, and we were not gonna make it, which prompted Kyle to drive like a spaz. Love the man but I have rapped him out, his portion of this is done and thank heavens
Cloudy day in the springs, it was raining as we left. Tomorrow is about 30 minutes of cleaning, prayers and farewells, and that’s it. I will only return to that place to dig up St Joseph in the backyard as promised.
Other end of Phase 1 moments:
- Kyle gave me his key, and there is now a lock box
- bills at Great Place decreasing as we hit warmer months. This is the last month I will pay those utilities
- bill from attorney came: it’s $0 because no work has happened in weeks. Last contact was beginning of April. I have decided not to pursue the attorney’s fees and equalization payment from the ex. I get house proceeds entirely and I’m free from any more demands for money and I’m content with that. Hopefully the house sells soon, my attorney and I part ways, and the law firm refunds me the balance of my retainer
-the punch list has dwindled down to “mop porch, take away trash, final prayers, SELL.” House is listed, we have Open House all weekend. May it be so
-double check I have successfully extended my forbearance. Calling tomorrow
I feel different today, I feel cleaner. There are certain wounds that as of this morning are GONE. Grateful for this! Grateful that now I can engage in other thoughts and activities without feeling like I’m playing hooky from the Queen’s Great Matter.
And just at Beltane which is just the time I declared my marriage over TWO years ago, so….wow….
I feel freer for sure but….still tired. Dare I order Japanese?
New moon on Tuesday night was very complete and lovely.
Monday was not the best day for Kyle and the renovation, but there are still a few things left. I promised him today was the last of it. Emmy came along, they had been fighting, awkward as hell but let’s get it. Kyle did the last couple things. He also forgot a couple things but he started making noise about @ it might be better for you to hire someone down here instead of us driving down.” I could tell by the he by dramatic sighs, complaints about his back etc, Kyle is DONE. So I tagged him out. Today was the last of it.
Realtor K says the last things are not deal breakers, so we are going to g to see if there’s pushback. I still have to schedule the bagster pickup, and go down there tomorrow to mop the porch, and pick up the last of the trash. I was almost done but Kyle was wiped out, Emmy was cranky and it was bus they didn’t want to spend another 30 minutes there so we left. There was suddenly an appointment that Emmy had to be at, at 1, and we were not gonna make it, which prompted Kyle to drive like a spaz. Love the man but I have rapped him out, his portion of this is done and thank heavens
Cloudy day in the springs, it was raining as we left. Tomorrow is about 30 minutes of cleaning, prayers and farewells, and that’s it. I will only return to that place to dig up St Joseph in the backyard as promised.
Other end of Phase 1 moments:
- Kyle gave me his key, and there is now a lock box
- bills at Great Place decreasing as we hit warmer months. This is the last month I will pay those utilities
- bill from attorney came: it’s $0 because no work has happened in weeks. Last contact was beginning of April. I have decided not to pursue the attorney’s fees and equalization payment from the ex. I get house proceeds entirely and I’m free from any more demands for money and I’m content with that. Hopefully the house sells soon, my attorney and I part ways, and the law firm refunds me the balance of my retainer
-the punch list has dwindled down to “mop porch, take away trash, final prayers, SELL.” House is listed, we have Open House all weekend. May it be so
-double check I have successfully extended my forbearance. Calling tomorrow
I feel different today, I feel cleaner. There are certain wounds that as of this morning are GONE. Grateful for this! Grateful that now I can engage in other thoughts and activities without feeling like I’m playing hooky from the Queen’s Great Matter.
And just at Beltane which is just the time I declared my marriage over TWO years ago, so….wow….
I feel freer for sure but….still tired. Dare I order Japanese?
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Date: 2025-05-02 05:52 pm (UTC)But now I know I could do this if I had to, and how to work with contractors better ( I hope), and I can enjoy this being wrapped up